Your Last Birthday

Your Last Birthday...
Did you know it was your last?
I didn't., not really.
I knew it was important.. I didn't know why.
I hadn't seen you on your birthday in years.
I felt so strongly that I should go visit
 I had no reason not to so I did.
I went down for a visit and happened to look
I saw on the calendar, that tomorrow it'd be here.
I quickly grabbed up a silly card and a present
I put them together and took you to dinner.
I took you to your favorite place to eat,
It's amazing how much I knew about you,
Even when I tried not to care.
I put on a show, and made it seem special...
I didn't know why it was important
I just felt that it was.
You cried that night, saying how special this was
It was your 55th birthday
Did you know it would be your last?
I didn't, not really.
If I had known, what would I have said?
So many words I never had a chance
So many thoughts left in their place
I heard a song the other day
I knew you'd have loved it....
I had so much anger built up against you
I didn't even always know why
I couldn't talk to you half the time or look you in the face
I wish I could go back and make it go away
I wish I could go back and say I'm sorry
I wish
I wish
I wish
But wishes I don't have... so I'll say this instead...
Happy Father's Day, Dad.
You weren't always the best
But you tried your hardest
I understand that now
I never quite got it before
How hard I know you tried
Every day was a battle for you
Every day you fought just to make it through
I didn't understand then what I now know,
The pain and struggle, the fight
I just knew how hurt I felt
I let it cloud my mind
I never let myself get past the hurt
Until you went away...
I am so thankful for that last birthday.
I don't know why I went
but every Father's Day I say a prayer
Thank you God, for sending me.
For your last birthday...
Did you know it was your last?
I didn't... not really
but I'm so glad I was there.