Starting Out

  I've tried the whole blogging thing before. It never ends up working out...

  I think it's for a number of reasons... one I'm trying to write for a specific audience... I'm trying to tailor my posts for other people... and two I'm trying to make my blog about one thing. Which is probably important if I cared about an audience.... but I don't. Not really. I'm writing this blog for me. For a number of reasons. Mostly though so I can get thoughts out of my head and out in the open. Even if I'm the only one that reads them, that's ok :)

  My biggest problem is wanting to write about only one thing... because that's what a blogs supposed to do, right? But I'm not a one thing kind of person... I'm scattered, everywhere, all over the place. I have many passions and they're all very...different. Yeah, but that's who I am, so go figure.

   First of all I'm passionately Christian. I have been my whole life, but the definition of that has changed recently as I have found myself being called to the Catholic church. This rather shocked me at first and I truly tried to fight against it, because of many reasons. Mostly though because I knew how much it would hurt many people in mine and my husbands families.... I wish I could let them know that if this wasn't so important I wouldn't have done it.
      I didn't set out in this to hurt anyone...and in many ways it makes me even more sad to know that people are hurting from this, because I am still following the same God as they, and I'm still part of the same religion. It's not really seen as that though. There are so many lies and deceptions about the Catholic Church that I was even sold on, so strongly that when I felt God calling me to His church at first, I ran. As far as possible... I was panicky and freaked out. I didn't WANT to be Catholic. I was perfectly happy where I was in my walk with God.... but God called me...and eventually I listened.....

  It was after much research, much prayer, and even more research after that. Because that's what I do. I read...and read...and read. I gather as many facts and evidence as possible before I consider making any decisions. I spent a month straight every night before going to sleep staying up late on CatholicAnswers.com reading up on everything I had questions about. Then I was given the United States Catholic Catechism for Adults(Which over time I started affectionately calling the CCC for dummies, because it explained things so well and was so easy to read in comparison)
  Finally after I felt I couldn't run from it any longer, I brought it up to my husband., who was as reluctant as I was at first. I told him why. He thought on it, asked me some questions and I was able to answer them easily(again having just spent the last month asking the same questions myself!)
    Finally, even though DH was still skeptical, we decided to go to Mass one week...and after mass he just looked over at me and simply said "I really liked this."  And that was pretty much how we got to this point. We've gone through RCIA(him completely, me mostly, and then through correspondence for the last part) but we weren't able to join the church this year... See my husband is in South Korea right now, and due to a series of unfortunate events(and the realities of army life) we were not able to go with him.. but that's a story for another time... as for now, it's late... and I have children to teach in the morning!